Tuesday, 17 August 2010


Considering that this is essentially a private space, it's remarkable how difficult I've found it to be truly honest in what I write here. Anyone who knows me through this site doesn't know me in real life. Everyone who knows me in real life doesn't know about this site, apart from one, and I'm hardly in contact with him at all these days, even though he's right up there on my list of favourite people.

So what's the point of having a secret space if I never reveal any secrets? I guess I'm a little ashamed of certain things, and don't wish to share them with strangers. I may allude to them, but I doubt I could ever openly discuss them, even in writing. Perhaps shutting them out makes them less real, and renders my questioning of my own decency invalid. A form of denial, if you will.

Suffice it to say that I have, err, erred. But I know I have it in me to rediscover the right path. Sorry - religious imagery not good. What I mean to say is that I intend to make certain modifications in my behaviour from here on in. I'll let you know how it goes, in a very vague and non-specific way of course.


Anonymous said...

Don't worry I'm not a grass! I'll lie to the bizzys if that's what's required.... Am I jumping the gun and over-reacting a bit?

Anyhoo said...

Oh come on, it's not a proper blog unless it contains enough potentially explosive material to build a battleship, let alone sink one.

So spill. Or if you must insist that we read between the lines do you mind spacing them out a bit?

Ben said...

I don't suppose I should be surprised that it takes the hint of something untoward to arouse interest. What can I tell you? I'm human - ce n'est pas un surprise.

MadeInScotland said...

It's easy when no-one knows who you are. Try it, and you might find it pours out.

But once people know who you are, you have to self edit, or be cryptic.


Ben said...

Perhaps the prospect of an outpour is what concerns me!

Either way, I don't see myself ever being able to resist self-editing. And being cryptic - well that's just fun!

FreeFox said...

tease ^_^ now i'm curious