Does continuing to search for something even though you don't know what it is and are pretty sure it doesn't even exist:
A. Mean that you are a dreaming fool, detached from reality and destined never to amount to anything?
B. Pass the time, distract from the mundanity and help you to cope with ennui?
C. Merely demonstrate that, in spite of everything, you have managed to preserve a core of innocence and optimism?